Recently my ex sent me an email advising me to be careful. It seems anyone, namely my children, digging deeper into my male MySpace profile might not like what they would find. Well, what they would have found was 2 of my friends. These are Genetic Girls who support the transgendered community. Because my ex-wife or anyone else looking at my profile could link from there to all sorts of other TG profiles, including this one, she felt it necessary to let me know.
Now at first I was like " Cool, I don't need to be so guarded around her" This quickly turned to " How dare you lay guilt or blame at my feet for our failed relationship" after subsequent emails. Our relationship failed not because I carried a secret from her, although this did not help. Our relationship failed because she was bull headed and uncompromising, just like ME! Two individuals incapible of forming a UNION. I have accepted many of my failing in that relationship and I'm sure I'll discover more to which I will promptly accept those too. Whether she sees any failing on her part is not responsiblity. It up to her to review her life and the decisions she's made.
Having said that, I couldn't help but feel closer to her since the original email. I've jokingly said that she is my "nails on a chalkboard" however I'm left longing for a better relationship with her. Our children are older now and all but one are in college. Yet because of our children, there is continued contact.
I think my overriding feeling is to just let people accept me for exactly who I am, and more forward with my life. Am I asking for too much?
